What IS this blog about. Today I feel like blogging, which is a first for weeeks. This is because I have questions and dillemmas and talking to cyberspace may help. Pen and paper help also and these will be included in the calculations. I say calculations because it feels like I am in the middle of a big maths problem. Not strictly numbers, but logistics and time and money and effort and love and faith and it all feels like a calculation, a cogitation.